imagination how true it is.............

I wont start with usual custom by saying that it’s a long time since I written the last miniscule idea wich come to my mind, sometimes its better to scribble whatever comes to your mind rather than being judgemental about its consquences, so lets start with my current position, Well me sitting in my office supposedly doing my intern, suddenly I felt a bit bored and longed for writing whatever comes to my mind, and whats great not to start with imagination thing, before starting let me imagine that weather outside is pleasant, but is it really true or just some craving for imperfection of events, My imagination holds an image of perfection and I am afraid to spoil it but at the same time I want it. Sometimes less than 48 hours(hold on why I am saying this) can change a perspective for life, can create an image of another kind of way, make you rethink views and values, wish time would last forever or stand still for eternity. If someone asked what else I wanted besides a career, I would have to say that I want to be with someone and never tell them 'I love you' because it would be understood think that every relationship we encounter in life has its roots- the common bond that connects you with that person to become more that just acquaintainces. Can you see someone, even from a distance and know, just know, without a word being spoken that you could wake up next to them everyday for the rest of your life or is that only in fairytales? I guess I hold back because rejection, even if you are not sooo interested in the other person, still hurts. I am afraid to say things that I really want to say sometimes. The words run through my head over and over until they are screaming in my brain, trying to get out, but then when I talk to that person, the old fear comes upI think too that it is not so much about being rejected but rather that you don't want to be rejected by someone you really like, so it is easier not to force the issue because then you can't go on fantasizing about your future with that person….stop time for reality check, me back into my sense and time to do work